Indepth 2018- Costuming!

For Indepth 2018, I will be learning about costuming in musical theatre. I will learn to sew clothing, design a scene, work with actors, and be part of a team. My mentor will be Ms. Leermoth, the theatre production teacher at Glen, but it’s expected that Jordan, the head of costumes, will be helping me as well.

I’ll get introduced to the topic by dropping in on theatre production classes. I’ve already attended a few to help with management/budgeting aspects, but I will be taking an active role in the costuming department from now on! To begin my indepth I’ve received a copy of the script as well as a lengthy to-do list from Jordan.

I’m really excited to learn about costuming in musical theatre because I already have interest in musical theatre, and clothing design is a really cool skill! After indepth, I plan to pursue this skill in grade 11 and 12, making it particularly useful.

I’m hoping through this project that I gain a full understanding of the ins and outs of costuming, as well as teamwork and leadership skills! My finished project may just be the actors being in costume during this year’s school musical Sister Act, or it may be a particular costume Jordan has put me in charge of. It all just depends on the flow of the department, and if we have enough time for me to complete such a project. It’s important to remember that this isn’t really an individual project, but learning a skill through a team project.

Main Goal: Don’t Weigh Down The Team!

Until next post,


Romeo and Juliet Response

I agree with the statement that Romeo and Juliet are ‘infatuated children’ engaging in ‘puppy love’. ‘Puppy love’ connotates a relationship composed of frivolous feelings, with no real depth/understanding. When they first meet, Romeo exclaims that he had “ne’er [seen] true beauty un[til] this night” (65). As we see Romeo quickly transfer infatuation from one girl to another, it’s easily observed that his love is not hard to earn. Romeo’s depression regarding Rosaline’s lack of availability was swift, intense, and of little thought. We can infer that his emotions are strong, debilitating, and sway his actions. It’s easy for him to mistake sadness for depression, as it is for him to mistake infatuation for love. Juliet, on the other hand, had never experienced true attraction before Romeo. As she’s young and inexperienced, it’s possible she became enamored with the idea of love and mistook her deep physical attraction and obvious chemistry with Romeo for something much more. Although Juliet has philosophical intelligence, even her father states that she is “yet a stranger in the world; she [has] not seen the change of fourteen years” (2:1 8-9). Juliet’s clear naivety towards the world and ‘real life’ is clear throughout the first 2 Acts. Even though Romeo may be more grown, his emotional intelligence is at a sporadic, lower level- this possibly being the reason him and Juliet can level with each other, despite their age difference. Further readings may indicate the presence of true love, but love thus far seems an impossibility.

I believe that Jindra Kulich’s argument that both Romeo and Juliet are adults of their time is baseless. The minimum age of marriage with parental consent during the Rennasiance period was 12 for women and 14 for men. While this indicates a cultural acceptance of early age marriages, it does not imply that children ‘grew up faster’. It’s much more likely that young children were put into arranged marriages before they matured. This isn’t to say that Romeo and Juliet’s age will stop them from falling in love- it’s just that they will do so as children, or at least, adolescents.


Doc of Learning 4

Well, Winter break is over. I’m going to be honest- I did not do much homework over the break. I was in Korea! Sue me!

I did continue to revise my poetry. There were a few long nights of me, sitting in bed with the Google Docs iPhone app, staring at my poetry. As soon as I got back, I put Deon’s illustrations with my poetry and formatted it all nicely. If you want to read my chapbook (google doc style), here ya go.

I’m really excited to present. This has been a helluva process, and I’ve enjoyed (almost) every second of it. I say almost because I was not fond of my writer’s block. I am most definitely going to continue writing poetry, and I have another plan for a chapbook/collection as well. Although for In-depth I’ve settled on costume making, poetry isn’t something I need a school project to motivate me for.

Chapbooks have many pros and cons. That much is obvious. Some pros were the un-challenging length, as well as the focused topic allowing me to avoid writing a progressive storyline. Some cons were definitely, again, the length and topic. The aspects that make chapbooks great also sometimes acted as a barrier. I’ve never been a huge fan of structure, so although I enjoyed making chapbooks, maybe next time I’ll choose a medium with even less rules.

Charlotte A

Doc of Learning 3

I have pretty much finished my chapbook. Revising is a never-ending process, and I find myself unable to stop combing through the poems, over and over again. Even though I like them, there’s a little voice in my head telling me they are still not good enough! I’ve been playing with word-choice a lot, as well as with different formatting patterns. I have many internal debates about just how many spaces I should put, where I should put this comma, or if I should really have a line break right here. Basically, pointless, tiring arguments. I have put a deadline on my revisions- CHRISTMAS!- so I can give myself the best Christmas present of all- a break.

A con of the chapbook form? Layout! Because there are so few poems, finding a consistent layout can be difficult, as the look/feel of the poems can’t really vary too much. They need to look like a cohesive whole. I’ve found myself cutting back on fun formatting things because I didn’t want there to be a poem that ‘sticks out like a sore thumb’. I am already planning my second chapbook. With more fun formatting things.

Hasta luego! And since Shakespeare ends all his sonnets in a couplet,

The end to zip is nearly here

If only chapbooks filled my year

Doc of Learning 2

I feel like I’ve out-editted my writing. It’s really at it’s best state right now, at least for my current ability level. The kinds of edits I’m doing right now change the message of the poetry. The words themselves, in my mind, are great.

It’s been super tempting to delete a bunch of my poetry. I’ve pressed the backspace button on a few but, generally, I’ve left the ones I don’t like as much in. I’m ready to put them in the chapbook!!

I really have come to hate the poems I put on my ‘Zip, post1’ blog. It’s taking everything in my body to leave them be, and not replace them with the revised versions. I’m sure I’ll leave my chapbook alone for a bit, and look back and wonder why I let people read that garbage! 

So, the pros and cons of chapbooks.

A huge pro I found is the flexibility. Chapbooks aren’t strictly for poetry, so I’m toying with the idea of letters, photographs, paragraphs, and more! Deon’s illustrations are REALLY GOOD! and I’m so excited to play with their placing and such. Speaking of placing, I think I’m ready to put all of it into the chapbook for draft1. I’m going to print so that I have a physical copy to edit, as that’s a more comfortable format for me.

A con I’ve found is trying to make a plot/progression with such a limited number of poems. I’ve found that my poetry can be quite confusing. If you don’t already have an idea of who I am, and my theme, it can be a little hard to grasp the message. A lot of my poetry is visual, metaphorical, and personified objects/nature elements. In short- it’s pretty vague.

I’m about to put all the draft sketches and poems into a template and print it out, cover it in red ink, and then print it out again. Wish me luck!



Zip Doc of Learning1

This past week has gone incredibly slowly. I have written so, so much poetry. And two other, more in-depth Zip blog posts.

I have used my time very effectively and am ahead of my schedule. Technically, I could paste it all into a template right now and just be done with it.

However: I was reading through my poems for the 100th time and all of a sudden felt really, really sad and incomplete. The chapbook was missing… something. So I sorted through my feelings and wrote some emo poems about religion. I keep having little moments like this, where my poems feel good and complete and then suddenly! something is off, and I must delete this word, or fix this phrasing, or change this order.

I’m also looking into professional publishing options a little, and it all looks very daunting.

I’m very excited.

A pro so far of chapbooks? They have one specific topic. This allows for an indepth look at a theme or message without having to write a hundred poems.

A con so far of chapbooks? They have one specific topic. My feels on my topic are way too diverse without writing a hundred poems. I’ve started to delete poems, which hurts my soul, and I even tried combining poems. Some of them have come out nice.

This makes me regret choosing such an intense topic for myself. Maybe I’ll expand, and make a full book for indepth! Maybe go into publishing too. That would be cool.

Also, Mr. Morris, I’m not sure if it’s the poetry you suggested but! ‘I could pee on this’ is the funniest and most heartwarming poetry. Makes me miss having a cat.

This is getting long. I’m really enjoying reading other people’s poetry, just because our styles are so different. It’s all very inspiring.

I love Zip. It’s the most fun I’ve ever had doing a school project.

my poems, which are in the process of being edited! and ordered!


Grade 10 Eminent Speech- Mary Shelley

I post too much!

But here is my eminent speech for Mary Shelley. I’m pretty proud of it, and my performance. I felt veeery theatrical. I improvised a little, but I mostly stuck to the script with lots of long pauses, hand motions, and stomping.

It’s Midnight!

And I’m up drinking and thinking about how it’s funny that I write about a man who could bring the dead to life, but that so much of my life is shrouded in death. My life is a joke and

I’m angry

Even my own wedding day- which is supposed to be the best day of my whole existence- is going to be because my fiance’s late wife DROWNED HERSELF.

A week ago she committed suicide

5 days ago I started to plan a wedding with her widow, a man I very much love

And 4 days agonI began to suspect that it wasn’t her hands that pulled the trigger, but my father’s. I tried to tell people the truth and they called me crazy. I’m not crazy!

I’m not crazy! I’m not crazy! I’m not crazy! I’m just… angry.

And tomorrow I marry the man I love with a murderer walking me down the aisle.

My sister is my maid of honor. But she’s a little preoccupied and can’t really make the date because she’s resting easy in our family grave

And I’m an unwed mother at the age of 19. It’s like I’ve already joined her.

My hands- my words- my ink- do not feel like my own. I am a writer simply because I am a puppet of fate. Prophets have possessed these fingers, and it’s only right that tomorrow they’ll bear their own metal shackle of their own. In the form of a ring.

How poetic. Very fitting.

Dr. Frankenstein- will be my greatest creation. My greatest literary achievement will be a man who could bring life to the dead.

I only wish I could do the same.

Zip, post2

Another Zip post!

Again, you ask? Well, yes.

To start answering my question…

What are the pros and cons of the chapbook form? 

A huge pro is length. For a starting poet, a length of around 30 pages (regular chapbook contests ask for 20-40, but most websites I visited suggested 25-30 as pretty standard) can be reassuring and a bit of an easier feat. Chapbooks are usually focused on one specific theme. Meaning, all the poems are directly related to the chosen topic. Chapbooks can get crazy specific. If you didn’t read my last rambling blog post, my chapbook is mostly focused on my journey of accepting my sexuality- and in turn, myself. Warning! If sexual orientation is a topic that makes you wildly uncomfortable, I do not recommend reading my chapbook! It’s not for you!

You may wonder, hey Charlotte, why do you talk about being gay so much? Good question, reader.

Welp, I have spent most of my life as a young person with thoughts and feelings battling this part of myself that, to many other people, seems rather significant. I grew up in a religion that simultaneously told us that (quote) ‘questioning God’s word is a sin’ and ‘gays are the worst things to happen to the world’. I am 100% serious. Talk about traumatizing my dudes.

The internal (and slightly external) battle I went through to come out has been one of the most important and defining experiences of my life. Not to mention, extremely emotional. Hence the poetry.

Also, mental illness! Another topic that surrounds my life! Is also mentioned!

A con of chapbooks?

Good poetry may be excluded because it doesn’t fit with the theme, or the chapbook is too long. I definitely could not find a home for some of my favourite pieces. I’m planning on sticking one at the end and one on the back cover because I love them too much. Also, with this length, it can be hard to articulate the full story you want. I’m finding it difficult to be satisfied with the order, topic, and formatting of the poems because fewer poems mean slightly less flexibility! For indepth, a collection??

I have my poems pretty much in the order I want. We will see if I change my mind, but right now I’m just going through and changing a few words here and there, tweaking a little. Deleting and replacing poems, changing them back, changing them back again. You know. The usual.

I’m still EXCITED!!! I figure I have to make 5 copies. 1 for my sister, 1 for Mr. Morris, 1 for myself, 1 to store, and 1 to have (and maybe give away at a later date).

See ya talons blog!

(and probably in like 3 days, and with even more parentheses, italics, and exclamation marks!)

Zip, post1

I’ve actually been working on this chapbook since I decided on my zip topic, which was a bit over a week ago. In this week, I have written down 50-odd poems for selection. Some old, many new! My theme is going to be the experience of being closeted, coming out, having real feelings for a girl throughout, and then being out and with a girl.

So, a hugely personal and private topic.

I’ve noticed that towards the end of my poem writing a whole lot more style and structure has come into play. It’s super fun to play with word placing and such things. I’m kind of sad that many of my poems just don’t have a home in my chapbook and I’ve started deliberating the release of a second chapbook.

Maybe not during the span of this Zip project, but eventually. This is all very exciting. I have not been this excited about a school project in such a LONG TIME!!! The last time I remember being this motivated was the Science Lesson Plan, and even that was nothing compared to this feeling. I’m feeling very go go go! It’s eating up all my homework time, but I am a-okay with that.

Nobody is gonna read this so I might as well say. I have a hard time working really hard and being super duper motivated to do work that does not excite me. Grades could not mean less to me. I’m working on this! But this is kinda why I’m the head of 3 clubs and will do the homework for the date it’s due and just… forget or straight up not hand in homework until a week after. Does this mean I’m going to peak in high school? Maybe. Does this mean I have a great time and love all the work I do, always? Most of the time.

Back to Zip. I’m going to start typing out all of the poems so I can edit and order easier. Why did I not type things out in the first place, you ask? Well, I find it easier to be inspired by real paper than a computer screen. If you have not tried writing on real paper by candlelight, you are MISSING OUT! This may be why so much of my poetry mentions heat or fire or burning. I really only write good poetry by candlelight.

There’s also this poet who goes by ‘Evl Mtn’ whose style is really cool and absolutely nothing like mine. It’s very eclectic and modern and complex and strange. Reading his poetry has been really inspiring, and you can see echoes in style among my more recent work. I really like how he formats and spaces his poetry. I think that’s sick! 

Toodloo TalonsBlog.

A Poem: 

flickering candle flames

are so peculiarly small and fragile

for a being who can both light up a room

and set it on fire

More Poetry: 

my pen is a thousand times more literate than my mouth.

ravels of wildflowers bloom with ease from carbon ink whilst my seemingly able lips and curling tongue stay dumb. my head, however, can man fields of a thousand species. Articulate all the world’s philosophy into a tiny lily. a frankly unintelligent bystander shrieks ‘fewer words equate fewer thoughts’

“no” my mind replied. feeling no need to elaborate further than that, as a person with such a brutish and unkind opinion could not possibly deserve- or begin to comprehend- more than a single syllable.


Even More Poetry:

I have spent most of my life with my lips sewn together

how dare you ask me to be silent

when my words are finally


Zip Proposal- Chapbooks

My question is- What are the pros and cons of the chapbook form?

I’ve been interested in literature and poetry for most of my life. Recently, I have been looking into different forms of compilation and publication, and I thought Zip was the perfect opportunity to pursue one of these options.

Throughout this project, I would love to compose a chapbook of 20-30 poems. I plan on writing 50-60 poems up front and then deciding which poems make the cut based on my theme and plot. For my final product, I would love to have a couple copies of a chapbook. I am really, really hoping for a physical form, but I also know that self-publishing on Amazon is an option too.

Poetry is such a free, self-directed, and highly personal way of self-expression. I’ve never really been taught to write poetry, but then again, poetry is a skill you can only teach so far. Truly great poets are mostly self-taught with a distinctive style. I hope through this process I can find that style for myself.

My fear going into this project is public feedback- mainly from my family. The subjects I plan to write about are sensitive and are not exactly topics I converse with my family about. However, I believe that good poetry is honest. If I try to filter my writing there is really no point to this project anyways. I am going to write first and figure out my audience later. I must be authentic to myself.

Some skills I would like to develop during zip are:

  • Formatting a poem
  • Binding a book
  • Sticking to a theme
  • Time management

Beyond the logistics of creating a chapbook, time management is crucial during this project. I have a very small amount of time to create something that, in my eyes, is quite substantial. I think the fact that I am personally motivated is a huge factor in me being able to get it done in time.


Day Day Actions
1 Dec 4


Work block

Write proposal

2 Dec 5


Type poems out
3 Dec 6


Type poems out, MACHETE!
4 Dec 7


Start tweaking
5 Dec 8


Work block

Figure out draftorder, tweak

6 Dec 9


Write remaining poems, if needed. Continue tweaking.
7 Dec 10


Write remaining poems, if needed. Continue tweaking.
8 Dec 11


Work block

Order poems. Continue tweaking.

9 Dec 12



Get the template for chapbook

10 Dec 13



Put poems into chapbook

11 Dec 14



Put poems into chapbook, print first draft

12 Dec 15


Work block

Based on draft, tweak order and poems

13 Dec 16


Finishing touches for order and poems. Look into self-binding options.
14 Dec 18


Finishing touches for order and poems.

Buy materials for binding

15 Dec 19


Work block

Finishing touches for order and poems.

16 Dec 20


17 Dec 21


18 Dec 22


Work block


Winter Break Make presentation

My timing is a little ambitious, but worst comes to worst I can work into winter break.

I’m so excited! Zippity Zap let’s goooooo!!!